Good morning 🙏🏼
Apart from realizing it’s time to slow down, it’s also being conscious of the present.
Knowing that I need to hold on to the right arm rest of the wheelchair when moving off the bed.
Carefully balancing as I pull up (surprisingly comfortable) hospital underwear with one hand.
The nurse cleaned and disinfected my ankle. It burnt a bit but she kept reminding me to breathe. The ice pack helps too and they have elevated the bottom of the bed which helps with circulation.
I think today’s goal will be to focus on deep breathing and visualization. I’ve been having flashbacks. It happened after my car accident in 2015 (not a drop of blood or broken bone, but the car was a write off).
It’s like I’m having an outer body experience watching the accident happen in slow motion. Bizarre feeling which induces fear and anxiety.
When that happens, I go back to a happy place/moment. I’ve chosen Paternoster - 1 January 2019. Smelling the ocean, hearing the squawking seagulls, feeling the sun on my back, the soft sand between my toes. Tasting the best Margarita for dinner. Wow - even writing this description slowed down my breathing.
Doctors have just made their rounds and confirmed that my surgery will be tomorrow.
I couldn’t ask for a better birthday gift than healing! ❤️🩹🎂🎁🎈
Pic is from Mum. 🙏🏼 Prayer is powerful and I appreciate each one.