Sunday, October 30, 2022

Celebrate another milestone with me!

Dear Family & Friends, 

Celebrate another milestone with me! ✨

It was the first time going out this weekend without my crutches. πŸ™ŒπŸΌ 

I’m still a bit wobbly, move slowly and lean on my hubby a lot. But I did it! 🀩

…thinking back to lying in the hospital bed. I used to wonder when/how/if I’d walk again. Getting daily injections for thrombosis prevention, because I needed to lay on the sofa - keeping my leg elevated. My leg muscles were so weak I could barely raise them.

My ankle still swells up a lot. My doctor assured me that it’s normal. He also said that it could take up to a year before I feel like myself again.

I’m in awe of our bodies and its capabilities. And beyond grateful for the love, support & encouragement from far & wide. 

A big hug & much love to you all for the week ahead. πŸ€—❤️😘

Thursday, October 27, 2022

Our baby, Benjamin

Benjamin wasn’t sick or old. This was just the most tragic way that he was meant to leave this world. The void is real and our hearts feel like it’s been squashed.

Darmesh & Tiffany were the best parents to this fur baby. My Dad adored this little guy. When I’d visit East London, Dad would make sure Benjamin came to greet me good morning in my room.

My Mum surprised us all. She loved dogs, but from a distance. She didn’t want them to jump on her - until she met this baby. In recent months when she’d babysit him, she’d tell him that she was going to mandir (temple) and that she’d be back soon. It’s like he understood and didn’t kick up a fuss when she walked out the door. 

I can still hear my Dad’s voice saying, “My baby booy”.

Go well, my baby Benjamin. You’re with Daddy now.  πŸΆπŸ’”πŸͺ”πŸ™πŸΌπŸ•‰πŸΎπŸŒˆ

Wednesday, October 26, 2022

Goodbye our beloved Benjamin

Our hearts are completely shattered. πŸ’”

Our beloved Benjamin left us and is now with our Dad in heaven.

Benjamin was run over by a speeding car yesterday. He suffered internal injuries - broken ribs, fractured spine, injured lung. 

Our little Pug was a fighter and I was sure he was going to pull through. 

The fact that he was still alive - after the woman thought she rode over a speed bump - was a miracle itself. 

This afternoon, I got the dreaded call that his condition was worsening by the hour. He was in pain. And they had to make the difficult decision - every fur parent’s worst nightmare.

My Mum was hysterical and kept saying, “He’s gone to Daddy.”

My brother was…actually, I have no words.

I am numb.

Aum Shanti Shanti Shanti πŸ•‰πŸͺ”πŸ™πŸΌπŸ’”πŸΎ

Monday, October 24, 2022

Shubh Diwali 2022

Shubh Diwali to my family & friends!

May your day be bright, bold, beautiful & blessed. πŸͺ”πŸ™πŸΌ✨πŸ€—❤️

Although I wish I was with my Mum now, I’m making the best of my current situation. Lighting these diyas and setting out mithai next to my Dad’s photo brought me so much joy.

I truly love and appreciate the significance of Diwali - more so now as an adult. 

Light over darkness.

Good over evil. 

New beginnings.

Today also marks 3 months since my accident. It’s been a rollercoaster. My recovery is steady and I’m constantly reminded of how amazing our bodies heal.

A massive (virtual) warm hug to you all! πŸ€—❤️

Sunday, October 9, 2022

October milestones!

One week into October and I have celebrated two milestones! 🀩

1 - Although I need help getting in and out, I can now stand under the shower, although for a short period. πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

2 - Yesterday‘s outing was to the hairdresser and lunch with my in-laws. It was the first time without my moon boot and the first time I wore a shoe on my left foot - since the 24th of July. πŸ₯³

It was a strange feeling taking each step. I still need the crutches for support.  As my brother said: it was the first time my leg saw the sun. ☀️πŸ˜„

I’m still having physio every week. On the day that I tried to walk with just one crutch, I had to consciously flex my left foot when taking a step. Can you imagine forgetting how you used to walk?! My foot is still a bit stiff and my toes are slightly numb.

I have two dark scars on my leg from the metal “tv aerial” after my first op. The scars around my ankle are still healing and need to be treated with TLC. They don’t bother me as much as I thought they would. It’s a constant reminder of what I’ve been through and how far I’ve come. 

I have two upcoming follow-ups with the doctor. But I’m in good spirits and slowly, but surely re-gaining my independence. πŸ™πŸΌ

I wish you all a wonderful week ahead! πŸ€—❤️😘

Thursday, September 22, 2022

Stills from my birthday VHS

I went down a rabbit hole in my photo gallery. 

These stills from the VHS of my birthday party makes me smile & choke up at the same time.

Featuring our fur baby, Apollo! πŸ• 

I can’t believe I had such thick hair when I was little. Decades later, nothing’s changed. πŸ˜„

Bottom left pic was us dancing to “Jabulani” 🎢 If you click on the photo, you should be able to hear the music clip I’ve added to this post.  

My Dad loved music. I miss us sharing links of what we’d be listening to. 

Always & forever… Daddy’s girl! πŸ₯°❤️πŸͺ”

Friday, September 16, 2022

I finally looked at my foot!

My doctor visited me at home today and removed the bandage from my op on Wednesday.

For the first time, I didn’t close my eyes and I looked at my foot - properly. The scabs, wounds, stitches & wrinkly toes, because they were so swollen.

The doctor & physio advise I wear the boot for the next couple of weeks when I’m alone - which is all day! And then I can remove it in the evening. 

Also, for the first time in almost two months, my left foot touched the ground without the boot. I’m literally learning how to walk again with the physio using crutches. 

As bizarre as it sounds, I sometimes think: “How did I used to walk before? How did I balance on these two legs?”

I need to put pressure on my heel, which feels so strange. Physio also advised I use anti-slip socks at home. 

My left & right leg don’t look like they belong to the same body. 😳

Last night I was horrified to see how “leathery” and flaky my skin had become under my bandage. I know it’s all going to heal itself...and I have Bio-Oil to help! 

Pic 1 - first time standing with my foot touching, although not completely flat, on the ground. 🦡 

Pic 2 - still my view πŸ™πŸΌ

Pic 3 - new exercise from physio: 

Sitting on a chair and using my foot (with a slipper sock) I need to “slide” a piece of kitchen paper on the floor - away from and back to me.

This will assist strengthen my muscles & improve mobility.

FB friends, thank you for your love!

I wish you all a safe & happy weekend. πŸ’–